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[01 Nov 2004|05:16pm]
i have a new account for livejournal. its everifall so please add me =)
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weekend is nearly over =( [31 Oct 2004|11:31am]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | The Lyndsay Diaries-No regrets ]

this weekend has been rather fun, and busy.

we had friday off because of parent teacher conferences, so i got my hair cut and went shopping. twas fun. i got 2 new shirts =).

then on saturday, i went to ratu plaza and i got an ipod and a bunch of movies. i then went over to my friends natashas house to carve pumpkins. it was fun. we made a HUGE mess and then i went home. and then i got on msn and amanda informed me she was picking me up...so i was like umm why? and then she did and we went to townsquare for a couple of hours. i got a bunch of earings. jolly olly isnt it!

and now today im starting my nutrition project. i dont want to do it. this sucks. blah! im tired, and i need to work. ill write more later.

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[27 Oct 2004|05:21pm]

BLAH! im at home bored. today was pretty good actually. at least for me...i had english first and i actually did my homework which i was proud of! and then i had honor pass where i did some of my english homework too and stuff like that. history was just full of blah. ms.bruce is a bitch. i got home and had a shower and now its gone all messy and curly because i didnt use conditioner...but i like it messy. i exercised today too, because i think im a fat ass. but oh well. anyway im done rambline...and thats all for now folks

and heres a pic of me with my wet and curly hair....

 

 

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[25 Oct 2004|08:42pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Ever We Fall- Three Wires In ]

There seems to be a void in my life, ive found. It makes me sad, and i feel worthless.

Back to school, and im already funnily enough hating it. I hate brittany. i go to school with this in my mind every day "i dont want to work in Mc.Donalds the rest of my life". i want to do something with my life instead of be a nobody. i had piles of homework and i finished it all, i was rather proud. im tired, and i dont like it here, but in a way a still want to stay. im just rambling pointless shit...im sorry...dum di dum...anyway goodnight.

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[24 Oct 2004|08:29pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | FM static=three days later ]

well i just basically got home from the airport, from thailand. im tired, sickish, but im still rather happy to be home. the trip wasnt all bad i must actually say. all it was, was basically shopping.

the first day we looked we were in a town called Chang Mai, which...isnt soo much fun but alot of shopping none the less, spent 5 days up there. we did a tour where you get to see the silk factory, bronze, gold, gem, and umbrella factory. i liked the gem place because they had some of the most outragous and yet beautiful things ever. i was silly and i tried and this big ass necklace and holy it weighed me down. yes...it was nice. i got some shirts and some thai stuff. the thai people are so much nicer then the indos, they dont push you or presure you into buying something you dont want to. mum found exactly what she had been looking for so she was happy. kimberley...was annoying and my dad was the same as usual. i finished the solitaire mystery and although it was a book i didnt like, i liked the philosophy in it. it has alot and i enjoyed it. anyway i finished another book too, "the book of dead days" i liked it alot, and now i need the second book to go with it. hrmmm we went to ride elephants and me and mum got a mamma elephant SO WE GOT A BABY! it was SO cute! i want an elephant =)..im a nerd....anyway...haha the baby was scared of chickens and so it made loud noises. it was funny. then we went white water rafting, which was fun accept i was freezing cold.......and then that was what i did in Chang Mai

in bangkok we stayed in the nicest hotel EVER, it was sooo nice...only problem was the food was shit. we upgraded our rooms so we had a deluxe room each. me and my sister shared and so forth...and yeah...we bought some gem stones in bangkok went shopping and saw, the biggest piece of gold i have ever seen. a 5 ton golden budha, pure gold i might add. rather big, then i saw the longest/biggest budha i had ever seen. this thing was 46 meters long, and it was a gold leaf budha, but i was the reclining budha, i have pics so ill put them up later, then we went to the old palace, and man i would have loved to live there! hehe, and yes...then we left...and our flights got delayed twice in the airport...which sucked...but meh we couldnt do jack shit, so yes that was my trip..and im SO tired goodnight

fuck school tomorow

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[16 Oct 2004|09:30am]
[ mood | bitchy ]
[ music | autopilot off-missing the innocence ]

well JIS boys lost another game, we lost last night again...hrmmm, oh well. anyway i didnt do anything exceedingly exciting last night. i went to bed at 11:30 because i was SO tired, hrmm JIS girls won a game yesterday and i dont know about the other 6pm game they played...hrmm, yesterday was okeyish.

i leave to thailand today, and i know im probably sounding all stuck up and shit and like a spoiled brat, but i dont want to go. my mums all "we are going to go sight seeing" and i dont think she has relized that ive grown out of crap like that. i dont want to go to another country and see trees and mountains. this week is going to be a waste of time and money for me, but they dont seem to care. i wanted to go to New Zealand, but nope we arnt...i get to go see ELEPHANTS! awsome huh.....meh...anyway...im packed, and im in a very very bad mood. i have severe pms and so this vacation is going to suck with me on it.

if i dont write for a while its because im in thailand...joy, jolly, merry

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[14 Oct 2004|06:54pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | alexisonfire-accidents ]

...today was better then usual i suppose. iasas soccer has started which was amusing, all my classes basically we went to see games. i skipped half of english to go see a game (we wernet supposed to) and came late so i though id get into trouble...but i didnt. it was jolly....hrmm yeah some of those soccer boys are mighty fine i must say! i got an email from softball registration saying me and natasha can be on the boys baseball team, and that we are the only girls and only exception. tis going to be a fun season, plus its going to help us for training for varisity softball, which im trying out for. the reason in going on the guys team is because girls 15-20 softball league got cancelled this year...and i really wanted to play so the regestration lady gave us that option and i took it. woot woot! anyway im soo tired, and bres not coming to school tomorow so i know tomorow is going to suck. andrew left for iasas cross-country so yeah everything has been rather boring.........dum di dum.....i cant wait for third season sports to start....and nothing is new...thats all i guess...night

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[13 Oct 2004|06:50pm]
[ mood | geeky ]
[ music | deep purple-smoke on the water ]

im such a bitch! i look back at what i wrote, and i relize im a horrible person. i do take things too seriously. i have so many flaws. i am what i hate. im sorry putri!

today was alot better then usual. me and putri are cool now, and we found out we can get our pictures retaken which is awsome. i overreacted on the yearbook thing and im sorry. i feel soo stupid right now...hrmm...anyway...em...bre and putri got there babies, and i think they will be fine parents one day actually. it as funny putris baby cried in yearbook, and it scared bre. the have cute babies mine was ugly haha.

em. after yearbook i had spanish and we watched shrek 2, which was rather fun actually...and then last i had health, which was funny because we each got a piece of paper to write any questions we had on sex,contraception and STDs because we are finishing the unit. some people wrote "can you get pregnant from oral sex?"...no...your eggs arnt in your stomach now are they? it made me laugh...some people dont know alot about the topic.

anyway i had to go get my TB test needle after school, which was alright, i usually hate needles but i was tired and wasnt in the mood to be scared, i managed to watch it go into my arm actually (i can usually never do that), it was funny last night my sister is all "your going to freak out and run away and cry" when she was the one that freaked out, it made me laugh and she called me a whore...because im allowed to drink, and that i have 10 holes in my ears..to my knowledge a whore is someone who sells themselves for sex...

anyway...thats all that happened today. night night

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5th grade and Middle School Memories-please read, your name may be on here [11 Oct 2004|09:18pm]
tonight i looked back all of my old middle school yearbooks and i relized how many great friends i have made over the past few years and how things changed. i remember when middle school was easy and in 6th grade how everything changed. lucia and chris and will, the people i hung out with soon became very distant friends, which i guess happens over time. i look at them now and see how they have turned into awsome marvelous people. lucia hasnt changed a bit and chris, well yeah he has alot, but hes still the same guy i knew in 5th grade. and in 7th grade, i look at breanna and look at her now, and how she has changed dramatically (a good thing). she is such an awsome person now =) and look back at how young and little we all were. its amazing to see how people change and just dont. i miss my younger years...it was easy then, but everything seemed so hard then. i suppose that is the way it goes. i wonder how michael raciopi is doing. that kid who used to hang out with me, lucia, chris, will in 5th grade. hahah i just found chris's pic in 5th grade and his little bobcap hair cut. hahah so cute. it makes me laugh.but after elementry everything changed in general..its hard to think that it was only about 5 years ago. i see some of the people i have grown up with in my yearbook, how im not friends with them anymore. all of my old friends never really talk to me. its amazing to see what we have become in 5 short years. what will we all be in 3 years? when we graduate?

now im going to write something about all of my old friends and if you want to skip right to your name and be a stuck up bitch go ahead, but read everyones if your not stuck up.

lucia- we were best friends at one point in time, and holy shit have things changed. we became distant friends i suppose but thats alright. but i will always remember your smile and laugh. and that time at my 11 or 12th birthday party you scared everyone by talking about the movie chuckie.

chris-well...things change buddy, you only really started talking to me this year which is awsome. your an awsome guy =)i remember the blink182 days where blink was the awsomest thing around, and if you didnt know who they were you werent cool...ah we were funny kids.

breanna- i met you in dance in the 7th grade. you were oh so shy...but now not so much. you are the loudest person i know now lol! its crazy, but your awsome still. you can always make people laugh and smile.

jackie-things change and people change. ive known you since i was about 5 years old. thats kind of crazy. i remember our first day of prep senior together where we sat on the swings together. it was neat, but things are different and there are no swings anymore.

amanda- i met you in 6th grade in art class. you and i were NERDS! woot woot! but yes it has always been alot of fun with you.

TRAVIS- YOU CAN ALWAYS NO MATTER WHAT! make me smile. weather if im in the worst mood ever. you could always make me laugh. i miss ya! you havnt changed the slightest bit and thats what i love!

andrew- well you came in 5th grade and i really never spoke to you until 9th grade. your a damn funny kid. also a little bit hairy but thats alright. your one with many jokes and thats neat.

amy-well...not one change since 5th grade. not one

nick- i met you in 4th grade, and you have been an awsome kid...with a few...wierd and scary and disgusting moments..but none the less a really nice guy.

danielle- you were my 5th grade best friend along with lucia. i remember the day i said goodbye to you, and how that day sucked so bad. things change, and change is good but it changes everyone else. we rarely talk anymore.
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[11 Oct 2004|04:45pm]

today was monday, and it was the shittiest day ever.

well putri...I WANT TO MURDER YOU IN YOUR FUCKING SLEEP! I HATE YOU. shes apparently been bitching about me behind my back about her stupid fucking yearbook picture (which is fucking fine) well i dont give a damn, im putting her picture in that fucking book. i have never been so mad in my entire life. i wanted to hit her.

i messaged her saying "stop bitching about because of your stupid yearbook picture" the answer i got back made me laugh: " i dont want it in the fucking yearbook. deal with it and stop being so immature" oo that made my day! first how am i being immature. all yearbook pictures fucking are shit. she just doesnt like it because shes smiling. second of all she looks fucking fine and third ME AND BREANNA ARE FUCKING EDITORS NOT HER! i hate her. i am going to kill her.

i was so mad when i got home, i went to my room and screamed and cryed. i hate JIS, i hate it here. i hate putri and im plotting her death

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[10 Oct 2004|08:33pm]
[ music | none ]

breaking point (pretty princess)

today was my last breath
i live between dreams and reality reside
Courage is vile and one cant help
today was the day i woke up

My memory i forgot...
Is waiting in my heart
Its so cold and i cant feel a thing

Bleed your eyes open wide, and maybe you may see what pain is like.
Dear my missguided friend
I hope you have found someones arms to cry in
To open you ears everyday is a gift, but to abuse it is what makes you
hold your breath for lies will stretch your breath
and break your soul
sometimes pain is what is needed to live to a full extent
Your memory of us is forgotten and us with you

You will wait alone in your world of disspleasure
for it will haunt you until your casualty is met
Your broken neck is in pieces
we'll watch you scream in agony
and the last face will be mine you see

art is a gift
your a lush and i hate you
your a touch overated and i'd kill you
your still that pretty princess i hate.
you've caused my breaking point

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[10 Oct 2004|11:11am]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | dont look down-visiting hours are over. ]

its sunday morning. and so far october has sucked. my weekend sucked shit really.

friday- i didnt do anything. i stayed home and watched movies. i guess that was okey but meh.

saturday- i went shopping with my mum and got 5 cds and about 30 movies. i watched jackass, it was funny. i had dinner and went to bed

sunday-has just started, and it probably going to be my homework day. yes im a loser.

i have to do my science, some spanish and some health shit. i hate school. and putri...and i feel im getting sick. i mightnt go to school on monday.

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[08 Oct 2004|08:18pm]

this week sucks...

i feel like i have no friends...

i feel annoyed...

i want to kill her...

i hate it here...

and i hate everyone....

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can i be a casualty? [06 Oct 2004|05:40pm]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | none...im sad ]

Life is such a bor...i mean today..was one of the most horrible days ever..and nothing even actually happened to make it so bad! im mad at everyone around me, and i dont even know why. i need a break, very bad. i dont want to go to mindys birthday party. i hate jolene, putri, mindy, and so many more people. i wanted to rip jolenes fringe out today in english...but didnt...yes today sucked. i want this week to be over with..but no i still have 2 more days of hell to go through and then the weekend in which i so badly need. i hate JIS, everyone thinks JIS is just so totally awsome, well i disagree. sure it may be better then some schools but the people and teachers at JIS suck. oh well...i wanted to kill putri today...i need new clothes...i need to go shopping...

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[05 Oct 2004|05:33pm]
[ mood | enraged ]
[ music | cky-hellview ]

today was an enourmously dreadful day...yes soo i cut my hair over the weekend...and now i kind of have a fringe but its side parted...and well i did it myself and i did it because i wanted to have something differeent! well guess what...im not different anymore..FUCKING JOLENE COPIED MY EXACT CUT! ARG im so mad. i could shoot her. fucking people cant be very original can they..meh im a hypocrit but fuck it. lol today i said i was going to dye my hair pink as a sarcastic joke because nobody would copy that...and then gretchen goes "HOW DID YOU KNOW! I WAS GOING TO DO THAT"...im sorry but pink? what the fuck? first of all you have black hair. pink is a cool colour and all but it doesnt suit hair, only certain people i think can pull the pink look off, second black doesnt even suit you.

putri wasnt at school today because she was "sick". apparently she had a high fever and shit, and didnt feel good. but she was fine and dandy yesterday and is fine and dandy now...yes stupid shit head. i hate her.  she has her own fucking job in yearbook and yet she helps me and bre out. it makes me mad because she hasnt even started her stupid job. i hate her, somebody hand me a knife please =)

i have read 112 fucking pages of the worst book ever..the solitaire mystery. it is the most pointless book i have ever read, i cant even bring myself to finish it! its soo horrible. then i finished my modern history essay. ms.bruce hates me...i hate teachers.

im dreading tomorow and im pissed off at everyone still. i hate being soo constantly moody, meh fuck. im tired, hungry, and i feel sick...i have 3 core classes tomorow and honor pass which is okey. i dont like people.

i hate everyone, and most likely everyone hates me...people cant be there own people, they are too caught up with "trends" and being super "cool" when cool is shit and trends are shit. i hate ilsa. her pants go up to her fucking boobs and then she wears those nasty pointy witch shoes. i want to stab her with her shoes.

right now most though i want to kill putri. fuckety fuck fuck fuckers suckers

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[04 Oct 2004|04:41pm]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | relient k ]

well...dum di dum...today at school i thought about how everyone is so judgemental and how we all hate eachother...its all psychological really. but the problem is i dont give a fuck if people judge me, my problem is that people judge themselves and make themselves out to be so fucking awsome, so people will respect them or become intimidated by them. its those pack of girls that do it, who seem easy for all the guys who only think with their cocks and not with their brains. i just dont see a point in judging oneself to make yourself out to be soo "cool" or "awsome" when people actually turn around hating you and using you. it makes no sense. one of my many unanswered questions....

i sit and ponder why people enjoy to degrate themselves and others...because to me, they do it to make themselves feel better when it actually goes back into their faces. people make their own enemies, others dont.

also i see that a certain someone is trying to be soo fucking "depressed" when their not...she is spoiled, has friends (somehow), and gets everything she ever wants and yet she says she is depressed...she makes up lies about herself so people pity her. why would you want pity in the first place? pity is bullshit, its just an attention seeking method, and i though you were the one that said, and i quote "yes i dont like to be the center of attention."...rethink your statement..

today was another sad, boring and lifeless day...so many questions left unanswered...oh well....people make me mad....for no reasons but reasons i cant explain...its wierd.

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[02 Oct 2004|09:09pm]
[ mood | restless ]
[ music | the used-i caught fire ]

Last week i would have to say was the shittiest week i have ever expierence. it was everything that could have gone wrong and horrible.

Friday was okey. i stayed at home and watched out my window as it rained. it was kind of relaxing and peaceful, something nice compared to all the depressing shit. i dont find rain depressing i find it calming so it was nice. i wish it would rain more often.

today was shit though. i woke up at about 10:30ish and i had to run and give a paper to my mum for softball sign ups as she was leaving the house. i feel sick today. i stayed at home all day and sat at my computer or watching movies and i even did a little exercise to calm my nerves. it rained again which was nice. i got my clothes my tailor made. there need to be a few alterations but otherwise everything is nice. i got pajama pants, capri pants, pants and a skirt made. my pants fabric looked really cool but dont suit the pants now...oh fuck. im tired and its only 9:15. im bored aswell.

i hate people at the moment. im annoyed with you, me, and everyone else in the world. im even annoyed with the tinniest things. its crazy how this happens. i also think everyone is mad at me or some shit but i dont know...i guess im just an insecure person.

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last day of september [30 Sep 2004|08:29pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | hopesfall-dead in magazines ]

its the last day of september. tomorow is friday and its the first day of october. i hope october is better then september. because this month is one of the worst i have ever had.

people are stupid here. callum is all mad at me and bre for telling on him for stealing a key for the baby project and trying to sell it. well callum i must give you a round of applause because personally i think your the biggest dip shit around. you are influencing people to cheat on this when it is supposed to be done by the person itself and not someone else. your stupid, and i honestly dont care weather or not your mad at me.

meh this week sucks fuck. i have never been so disgusted with people until now. to be honest i have never hated so many people at once. i honestly sometimes feel like screaming at everyone. its unfair.

im tired, and i cant sleep, because i dont feel like it. lifes a bitch and then you die right, or at least thats what it says in the song. i like that song.

i could write an endless list of what and who i hate here. its not normal here, but then again define normal.

i have another test tomorow. this week has been nothing but tests, quizes and oral presentations. i have had one everyday. i hate 10th grade. 9th grade was easy. this is just shit.

im done. later.

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[29 Sep 2004|09:15pm]

well this week has so far been shitty....i im...

  • tired
  • mad
  • sad
  • bored
  • lifeless
  • stressed
  • annoyed
  • confused
  • bitchy
  • cold
  • contemplative
  • sore
  • hurt
  • cynical

and so much other crap...

honestly school is horrible and i wish it would die aswell as the people in it. im annoyed with everyone right now, and i wish i sometimes could jump off a cliff...but yes that wont solve anything.

today was my one day i didnt have homework. it was nice yet boring and still stressful. fuckety fuck fuck. i hate it here. im tired of people judging themselves and me. im tired of being treated like shit by people whom are shit. im tired of being trodden on or feeling like a third wheel. im fucking tired of SCHOOL.

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[28 Sep 2004|05:30pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | arch enemy ]

I HATE SCHOOL! the only thing that will kill me is most possibly school and the people here. the fucking teachers have such high expectations of us students! i have 2 projects due tomorow and a HUGE bio test! i have been working non stop on shit all day and im tired and i need a break. school is shit


the people are shit too: those fucking popular bitches walk around like the own the school. well fuck them. honestly they judge themselves as well as us. they judge themselves to be better then everyone around them. they think they are special when they are not. well honestly i hate them. people have changed and if bre, andrew, and jon wernt at school i dont know what the shit i would to. i would probably die or something.


putri- shut the fuck up your parents dont hate you! other wise they would fucking disown you. you have nothing to be depressed about so get over your life. and nobody cares about you and your stupid family problems.


brittany- your a whore, get over yourself, you have horse nostrils and your not pretty.


jackie-i hate you, go fuck yourself.


kirsten and talia- get a life, and get a fashion sense and stop sucking up to people because its not getting you anywhere. frankly people are sick of you so eat your own shit.


mitch and tyler- you've changed. you guys were awsome now your just like everyone else. be your own person. the bench people arnt cool and getting with whores isnt either.


devon- your a stupid fucking liar.


gretchen- you still owe me an apology, but honestly i dont care. im better then you and i know that, thats all that matters.


harrison-take a fucking shower! you smell like shit! wash your hair and stop being so annoying towards people


philip-dump gretchen, you can do better.


callum- fuck out of peoples business and stop trying to cheat at the baby project, its not cool you asshole.


erika-your not even here and yet i still cant stand you. stop emailing me.


mindy- your not the only one with fucking problems. suck it up and get back to work, my life is full of way more shit then yours.


alice-....i dont care


bre-thank fucking god your here because i would die with out you!


andrew-with out you things suck, and seem to be so boring


jon-you and your fat is awsome, keep up the good work tubby.


shey-your an honest to god nice guy but im sorry, stop trying so hard and be yourself, i know what its like to feel like that and be told that.


christa-you dont talk to me anymore, or anything. it sucks but oh well.


jolene-cheer up, and start talking your not all bad.


me- i feel like shit, and i dont know what to do, i felt like bitching about people so here it is.



im adding more because ive found more time

amanda- your awsome but its different now and its hard to understand im sorry.

lauren jones- i have always found you the most bossiest person on earth, so shut your fucking mouth

rachel b-your smart, and pretty but i find you too much of a goody good and an over achiever, loosen up and get a life. honestly you should have more things to do then writing a 4 page analysis on a secondary source

rachel w-STOP HITTING ON GUYS! your full of freckles! its GROSS! your annoying so stop it! you dont even know i exist yet on project week you did.

shaun- ooo i hate you with a passion, you are the most egotistical bastard i have ever met. what you did to bre was fucking shallow and if i could i would hit you with a baseball bat OVER AND OVER AGAIN until you were dead. all you expect is pussy and girls to love you. think again shaun and take a look you have NO friends, stop fucking trying so hard and attempt to get yourself some fucking friends.

alex rusnak- i hate you, you are a dick head and a clone of shaun and thats sad. stop trying to make people feel bad to make yourself feel better because honestly its not nice and thats the reason you have no friends. even freshman hate you.

alex miller- just fuck off. as bre said LEAVE ALL OF US ALONE! you are the dumbass of the century.

sonia- live a little! get your nose out of a book and go out and have fucking FUN!

Larissa- LOSE FUCKIN WEIGHT AND PULL YOUR PANTS UP! i dont want to see your thong hanging out of your pants! its nasty and stop laughing at me in english. you are an ugly fuck

Amelia- shit woman, i can go on about the ways i hate you. you are a skank, whore slutty man who fingers other girls. honestly try making yourself look like a girl for once and not a man!

Fiona- i will forever loathe you in my heart so rot in hell godzilla.

Jessica (canadian)- first of all close your mouth because your ugly. second of all as bre said belly rings arnt the "in" thing anymore. and honestly are overrated. i am ashamed to be canadian because of you. you are a shallow hoe.

Jessica H- i hate you too, you are a hoe aswell. i have never dont anything cruel to you and yet you treat me like im second rate, well eat your shit. because im better then you.

prita- get some new clothes, stop judging me and my friends and stop being such a goody good.

Alan- GET A GOD DAMN HAIR CUT! the fro is not cool anymore seeing that it looks as though you NEVER wash your hair!

chris c- first of all your voice is the funniest thing i have EVER heard! second learn to fucking spell and stop saying shit about breanna to your friend josh. and smoking pot just isnt cool, if you ever want to get laid (which will probably never happen) stop smoking shit, its a turn off

josh- you are just as bad as chris.
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